scared to turn 20

...hell yes.

i mean, i guess im excited - to an extent. the big 2-0. thats one year closer to graduating and one year closer to being 21, the only birthday worth celebrating. but thats also one year closer to having to pay for your own health insurance and going to grad school (pray hard and dont get sick).

i dont even feel much of anything for my birthday anymore. it was like when i lost my virginity. im not excited, nor do i care. how immensely sad?