metal heart

dear failed relationships,

i appreciated what we have, but now, its time to let go. i dont blame you for everything and im not calling you an asshole (even though everyone seems to be thinking it). maybe the waters were just too cold, you know? i never got used to what we had, so i was too scared to actually go in the pool. but now that its gone, i sure do miss it. sometimes i cry, but dont tell anyone.

i mean it. at first i was angry, but now, im just tired. im tired of thinking about how things didnt work out. so, its not you, its me. lets stop contacting each other. no? my sorrows havent stopped you from moving on, so just let me do the same. i really did like you, but i cant hold on any longer, and theres nothing that can be done about that now. dont facebook message me saying you want to be pen pals. dont come to buffalo. dont come back to nyc. and if you do, its okay to delete my number. i wont be hurt. in fact, ive deleted you guys a long time ago. there is no need to dwell. i loved you once - perhaps secretly, forever, but i wont ever admit it.

one day, maybe we will sit and talk about your life and then about mine. how things are nice. fine. maybe listen to sufjan stevens. whatever.

- christina

"you let go and i'll let go too" - lauryn hill