i'll be your american wife
how do you fix broken relationships?
do you take the lead - be the bigger person?
tell them to fuck off?
how do you forgive and forget when its so hard to forget?
i want to believe that simply forgiving, being a bigger person and allowing someone to be a part of your life again (however extensive that may be) is enough. that going along for a superficial ride, coasting, and allowing the other to have faith, pretending like they've burrowed a niche inside you is okay because it meets the minimum requirements - it satisfies one.
but relationships have always been plural. without this pluralism, it would be emotionless. an endless feeding or consumption from one and not the other.
i know this, but most times fail to realize it.
how do you talk to someone again?
have a conversation without feeling really empty inside?
many people sometimes say that they wish they could turn back time. well, i dont. in all its cheesy-ness, ive never felt the desire to reverse what has been done.
there is a preservation factor involved here.
in spite of everything - i want to retain some of what has been.
maybe because it was so unbelievably hurtful, or maybe because it was so unbelievably hurtful when it fell apart.
how do you tell someone that you will never talk to them the same way ever again?
that a part of you will always see them differently and that this can not be taken back or altered.
maybe one day i will be able to forget and plaster the blisters that seem to reemerge everytime i think about this person.
maybe one day i will have the strength to leave all of that behind, but for now, im still here. iam still the fool that will pretend because i truely believe that there is good in this individual. in spite of all that has been thrown about and said, i have never faltered when it came to that singular thought.
do you take the lead - be the bigger person?
tell them to fuck off?
how do you forgive and forget when its so hard to forget?
i want to believe that simply forgiving, being a bigger person and allowing someone to be a part of your life again (however extensive that may be) is enough. that going along for a superficial ride, coasting, and allowing the other to have faith, pretending like they've burrowed a niche inside you is okay because it meets the minimum requirements - it satisfies one.
but relationships have always been plural. without this pluralism, it would be emotionless. an endless feeding or consumption from one and not the other.
i know this, but most times fail to realize it.
how do you talk to someone again?
have a conversation without feeling really empty inside?
many people sometimes say that they wish they could turn back time. well, i dont. in all its cheesy-ness, ive never felt the desire to reverse what has been done.
there is a preservation factor involved here.
in spite of everything - i want to retain some of what has been.
maybe because it was so unbelievably hurtful, or maybe because it was so unbelievably hurtful when it fell apart.
how do you tell someone that you will never talk to them the same way ever again?
that a part of you will always see them differently and that this can not be taken back or altered.
maybe one day i will be able to forget and plaster the blisters that seem to reemerge everytime i think about this person.
maybe one day i will have the strength to leave all of that behind, but for now, im still here. iam still the fool that will pretend because i truely believe that there is good in this individual. in spite of all that has been thrown about and said, i have never faltered when it came to that singular thought.
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